Monday, August 31, 2009


Eto, habang avail uli.

Von: alam mo, nagpapasalamat ako kasi naiintindihan mo kami, na open ka sa tulad namin.

(Avaya beeps)

Me: Thank you for calling...

(After a five-minute argument with a customer)

Me: Panong 'di ko kayo maiintindihan, Eh tulad nyo ako?!

Von: (smiles, then hugs me)

This is getting easier and easier to talk about. And I'm lovin' it! Hehe.


Muli, habang Ka-chat si Web.

Me: May sasabihin ako.
Web: Ano?
Me: Tulad mo ako.
Web: Gago!

This is the most straightforward revelation so far. Walang patumpik tumpik. Swak na swak.

Pangalawa, Pangatlo

Habang ka-chat sina kel at dodge..

Me: May gusto akong tao

Kel/Dodge: Sino

Me: Tumawag muna kayo.

Phone rings.

Kel/Dodge: Sino na?!

Me: (Types in the name)

Kel/Dodge: (Brief silence) Talaga?!Hahahaha!

Thursday, August 27, 2009


Habang avail...

Whey: Sinabi mo na nagkaron ka na ng experience sa mga tulad ko?

Me: Oo. Bakit?

Whey: Nagkaroon ka na ba ng karelasyon?Na-in love ka na ba sa mga tulad ko?

Me: (after a brief smile and a long pause) Hmmm..Oo.

Whey excitedly laughed. I, Happily relieved.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

The Awakening II

Since our line of business gets few calls, conversation among colleagues while waiting for calls to come in is normal. Topics of conversations vary. Politics, relationships, gender. From the most important to the least trivial. To while away time and to avoid sleepiness, we talk.

One lazy thursday(08/06/2009), past sexual experience/s became the subject of our "sharing".I don't know how it started, but when it was my turn to talk, a gay colleague asked me if I had sexual encounters with people like him. I was taken aback.

After trying to erase the memories I had with gay men, a gay colleague asked me pointblank if I had done the deed. Memories came rushing back, I muttered, "Yes".

A flurry of questions came my way. I got confused, but nonetheless told them the truth. Yes, I spent time, of the sexual kind, with "happy" people.

Was I relieved? No. I wanted to tell more.

Friday, August 14, 2009


Dear Lord,

Thank you for giving me the opportunity to work with great people.
Thank you for giving me time to spend with them.
Thank you for letting me find true friends.
Thank you.


Our fate is still uncertain. Our employer has only less than two months to squeeze in more than 200 agents to its other clients. Even with the assurance from our director that everyone's safe,It's almost certain that many will still lose their jobs. Our company's other clients needs only about 100 slots to fill.

Is it time for me to update my resume? or stick it out with the company till the end?

Tuesday, August 11, 2009


Our site just received some bad news. Our client is pulling out of our Manila site, and is transferring business in Cebu.

This reminds me of the film Outsourced. It gives us a humorous take on life at a call center. Towards the end of the movie, The call center's client pulled out and was to transfer operations to China where labor is cheaper. This is the same scenario where my colleagues are in; our Cebu counterparts are getting the job for their labor is cheaper.

The movie provides a lighthearted glimpse at how easy it is to lose jobs. It's characters accepted the news casually. In reality, I couldn't do the same. I just couldn't.

The ONE that got away (My version)

I made this January 2003, after a failed courtship. The ONE that got away is now a mother of a lovely little girl. She's still a friend, and will always be.

If there was a crowd and she was there, she wouldn't stand out. Her smile, her eyes were just like the crowd's. She wasn't extraordinary.

Or so i thought..

I never noticed her simplicity, i didn't see her wit.

It began to sink in to me that among the crowd, she was unique and as i slowly realize that she had a space of her own, it also began to creep into my mind that indeed, she was special, that that space, that dent slowly encroached myself and before i knew it, she already invaded my heart. i was caught off guard... i fell.

There were sleepless nights and meals missed, yet still, i was in cloud nine. i became confused. the mere thought of her gave that extra push and energy to go on with my boring and monotonous life. there wasn't a day that i never thought of her,never a night that i didn't dream of her.weekdays, class days were a bliss for i could be with her. excelling in class was a breeze because i had the inspiration to be the best for her.

she totally enraged my being..i was helpless..the Queen started her reign.

Then came my proposal. it was her birthday.i thought a proposal of love would be a fitting gift to the loveliest lady this side of the planet i had known. i wore white to show my purest of intentions. i already fell and, by this time, was also ready to take the plunge..and so i did.i was ready to be her slave for i knew she's the one -- She's the ONE.

The courtship was sweet for she could already see my feelings yet it was bitter because it had to stop...she loved someone else."if you have come earlier.."

i was devastated..i was puzzled"if you have come earlier." why?
the discovery was even more hurting. she had loved me too, but i was late. i came too late.

Yes, she is the one...the one that got away...

Thursday, August 6, 2009

The Awakening

I just told my friends part of my past. A part of the past i didn't know i could share to them. I told them the awakening.

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Young. Hypertensive. Impotent?!

27. 140. 90. These are the numbers bugging me right now. I'm only 27 and my blood pressure is already shooting up to 140/90. This scares the hell out of me. Morbid thoughts come to mind. I don't want to start taking maintenance drugs this early, worse, I don't want to be six feet under this young.

To avoid these thoughts, I texted one of the funniest guys I know - Rey. I thought that by texting him, I'd realize that the situation is all but serious. He's 4 years older than me. I would always joke about his age, how he can't seem to fully grasp new and exciting things(like facebook and its applications, and of course, this-blogging). He, in turn would tease me about being celibate for the past five years(this is a LIE, of course!hehe)

Now, the joke's on me. I'm younger and the first to manifest the signs of aging(waaaah!) and what's even worse is the possibility that I might become impotent before he does. (Impotence is a possible effect of hypertension, FYI). He thinks that my celibacy(which again, i reiterate, is a big LIE) will turn out to be for life.

My pet still wants to explore and enter crevices! and he can't do that incapacitated. This can't happen!

Texting him would've taken the wits out of me, but he's a friend. He's there to make me feel that this serious matter should just be laughed at. He told me to just think positive. and I'll do just that. Salamat 'tang!

The Torch

The torch is my humble master.
The beacon from which the fire emanates.

The blaze ignites solicitude.
Do I let the conflagration devour me,
or flee the raging inferno?
The sea of flames enchants, bewilders, stupefies



The torch is my lord
and I am his willing slave.